Dancing on quicksand

 If you've ever read any Terry Pratchett, you will know that he was an amazing wordsmith, who came up with the most fantastic similes and metaphors. One of my favourites is from The Fifth Elephant, in which he talks about the intricacies of diplomacy as being like tap-dancing on quicksand.

A person in wellies running along the beach


In my life, having to deal with change feels very much like tap-dancing on quicksand. It's fast, it's hard to get my footing, and I don't always know the steps. Lately, my life has been full of change, and I am still adjusting. Autism and change are not always a very happy combination - I thrive on routine and knowing what to expect.


I actually wrote a little about it when I was blogging for NeonDaisy CIC - just so you get the idea.


In looking to new projects, I am trying to regain a semblance of control over my life to counteract the uncertainty caused by the change around me. It's not totally getting rid of the anxiety it causes, but it helps me to focus on something else. Currently I am concentrating on my turn at leading the music at our church, which I do once a month, and on the new stay-and-play group that I have just set up at our church for parents and their children under 5. Plus this blog, of course, and planning for fun things to do during the summer with my family.

How do you feel about change?


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